It has been days of emotions roller coaster... I got a big blow in my life that hit me down to the bottom of the pit. Literally. It's really depressing whenever I think about it. It's like a dashed dream of 7years... I thought I've let go but I didn't. However, I'm thankful that God allowed me to go through this and face my emotions. He allowed this cos He knew that I haven't let go... And He wants me to let go so that I can trust and surrender to Him completely and just yearn for Him because He's the best and He has the best in store for me(: It's like He can't give me something better if I keep holding on to what I thought is the best... Trusting in His word makes me happy:D This incident makes me depend on the Lord even more than before. Though it has been a struggle of dwelling in my emotions or in the Lord, God is always with me and leads me to victory. This saddening period makes me yearn for God even more cos only He can fill the emptiness in me and I'm just so happy to be in His presence and to feel His love for me(: The best thing is that He's with me and He has given me 2 precious weapons to fight against my emotions and they are His words and music/singing/praises/. They bring me up to the sky!! IloveGODttm!!